Confused, tired, huh.

Since JPA postponed the release of the interviewer's results, whether they have the chance to pursue the study under it, made all tensed out. Huh, seriously, I'm tired of waiting.. Gosh, seriously, seriously, seriously.  Really, He put me in a test. Patient. (-_-)~

I've heard that MARA scholarship result also postponed, and said to be released as the time of JPA's. I found out Izzudin stressed out, as I read on his blog just now.. So do Amar Zaim. Poor them. Poor us. T_T.

As back up, I'm preparing for the intake to University of Malaya by filling the forms, getting copy of these and those documents. I also managed to go to the HSM (Seri Manjung Hospital) just now for medical check-up. After paying the check-up fee, RM20.00, I needed to go to x-ray department to get my inner side of my body being snapped by a giant no-at-all-camera-like stuff. I was shocked just now when I'm staring at the x-ray film, I found some pattern. Weird one. Really.

Then, having urine test, negative, negative, negative. I'm not consuming drug anyway. Then, having eye test, and even though I've been aided by spectacles, my left eye still couldn't see properly. Okay, no more budget for new lens as I have already changed both of it almost last week, if I'm not mistaken. I don't have any money more remain, as I cost RM 80.00. Never mind, next time.

I confused now. The time for UM intake was around the corner. The relusts for JPA almost at the day of the intake. Let's time go on, and see.

Inside or Outside.

The agony is back. Since the most agonizing feeling had happened, the day I fetch my SPM result, now I need to face another one. JPA result.

Before this, I've posted an article about my experiences during JPA interview, here, Program Ijazah Luar Negara (PILN) then, I should wait for the result. Whether I get the chance to pursue my pre-U in INTEC for Biotechnology course or otherwise, I don't know yet. They said, third week of May, perhaps 16th-22nd May. Yah, wait.

I also got offer via UPU, when I qualified to pursue my study in Malaya University for Applied Science with Islamic Study. I've mention about this in my post before this, here, at the last paragraph. I should do the registration on 23rd May.. and those preparation don't complete yet, including medical check-up.

So, since JPA result forced me to had this hectic wait, I don't know where will I go yet. Just all I can do is, keep praying hoping the best for my future. InsyaAllah, He knew the best.

Nowadays of My Life.

Since a long time I've never put or post anything for my abandoned beloved blog. Huh. Seriously, bored to the power of infinity while having time at home, made me so-not-in-mood to type anything. Yeah, nothing to do, got no idea. Usual regime, house works. That's all. Online on the net, I think I should put a limit. The electricity bill was killing. Then I managed myself to have some activities. Some of them, yeah, read on.

Gardening. My lawn seemed like an abandoned and haunted with some wild animals made this area as their habitat. Then, fortunately I got tools for cleaning all the mess. The weeds was tonnes! The most annoying part, there were so many stones, gravel, cement fragment, so do bricks fragment. I also managed to kill some centipedes. Not too big, just long, about 2-3 inches. I attached some pics of plants on the lawn. So, my blog would be just colourful. *Whatever.

 Salary weed. My mom planted this. Died few days ago. So hard to have one of this herbaceous plant in our own lawn..

A birdnest. I found it behind the palm of the bananas trees. So cute. I'm not sure as of there any eggs or baby bird inside.

Some pots that I've arranged on the wall. Seemed wired. From left, I-don't-know-what-type-of-tree, center, curry leaves tree and gonna be ginger plant shoot will come of some weeks ahead.

Snapshot of bunches of Hibiscus orange type flowers. (Want some perfect bunch? Come to my house.)

I'm not sure what was this flower named. But in Malay the called Bunga Jarum Tujuh. This one, it was not completely be bloomed.

My beloved snap, cute isn't it? Rose, pink rose. I have just skinny one of the tree, well, we're on the Equator.

That's all from the lawn. Next time I'll put some snap of the lawn. These just the contents of the lawn. 

Next, novel. Reading of course. I managed to finish a novel of Stephen King, from the collection in Four Past Midnight. The Langoliers, not bad. Credit to Ikmal Nazrin who gifted me this novel. Haha. I just want to borrow at first, then, for so long I didn't return it, he just said, keep it. Langoliers was actually a creature that could eat anything, not just eat, but ceasing the existent of the things that be ate by it. The story begin when a group of passengers took a ride on a plane realized that nobody left on the plane, just because they wide awake. The passengers who fall asleep remained there. Then, they faced some situation, where they met the langoliers, noticing a dark hole in the sky and so on. Ask me if you want have a read on it. 

The cover exactly like this. So thick, 744 pages, consisted 4 novels, The Langoliers, Secret Windows, Secret Garden, The Library Policeman, and The Sun Dog. I've managed to finish The Langoliers, and Secret Windows, Secret Garden. For your information, there were 45 lines each page, making the novel so congested and have many words. And small font too.

I also started to stick on the television. For now, two type of series be my favorite, Glee on Starworld and E.R. on Hallmark Channel.

Glee was a bout a teacher in high school, fight for the reorganization of long-time-abandoned club, which was Glee Club. This club was a singing club, which tended to dig singing talents among the students. Really great series. Credit to Fye for introducing me this TV series.

E.R. I think this is a well-known TV series. About a group of doctor which worked everyday non-stop, changing shift and faced so many type of human medical problems in emergency department. Those doctors an nurses was so amazing, terrific. So quick and precise. Some drama inserted as there were some death and fight. Hayyan should watch this. Real chaotic situation exposed, and if you just follow the series, you'll never want to leave it. Credit to Aiman BAsrun for introducing me this TV series.

Anyway, while I as at home, so many letters came. College, diploma, bla, bla, bla. I have a pile of it, save in my locker, and I've no idea what to do with it. Among the letters, I got matriculation, in Perak Matriculation College, and I've denied the offer as I got offer to Malaya University for Applied Science with Islamic Study. I've accept the offer and if God will it, I'm going to Nilampuri for the course. BUT, I'm waiting for JPA scholarship for Biotechnology course. Really hoping for this as this was my first choice. And InsyaAllah, if I got this one, I;m going to pursue my study in USA. I'll tell you more about it in a short time.

Ok. Enough with this. I'll post some other updates next time. Thanks for reading. =)

First time as Interviewee.

 I really be honored when I knew that I was the one among all the students who applied for JPA or PSD (Public Service Department) scholarship (18,000++ overall), and being selected for attending interview (8,000++ overall). And now, I've done my part by attending the interview last Thursday, April 8th. The program was held in Majlis Perbandaran Ipoh (MPI).

After having 1 hour (I guessed more) trip to Ipoh by car that was lent by my sister in Keramat, my dad arrived in Majlis Bandaraya Ipoh (MBI) building, in front of it. along the trip I felt very uneasy felling of my stomach, and for sure it's nothing to do about butterfly. Wrong diet perhaps. Until we having lunch in the cafeteria on the building, I still could not reach my appetite. So, just having a bite of muffin.

Okay, everything seemed to be fine. My shoe, shirt *peach in color and trousers *my sister said I'm like in retro era because of the cutting of my pant, the documents and the most important thing, the confidence. Anxious, cannot be doubt, but I could not resist the excited feeling, the passion. I managed to go to the 2nd floor, floor for the program being held, then I've been instructed by an office there to left my signature on a board; which 5 A4 sized paper placed there with names. In my approximation, approximately there were 50++ students should be attending the program that day. And I became more anxious, because most of the student of my panel; 4th Panel was Chinese. Then I stepped back understairs.

I met Nabil, yeah! At least one of KISASian be there with me, so I got some strength. having some chat with him really made me up. Then, the clock showed 1.45 p.m. Time to act. Go upstairs, sit for a briefing. Bla, bla, bla, all about documents, making sure we got all what they needed. Then, we wait until a guy called us; grouped us according to panel. I met Qurratul Aini *not sure the exact spelling, also KISASian, Ali sport house, huhu. I managed to say 'goodluck' to her and so do her. Then I walked as directed by the instructor.

I was grouped into 5 students of group. All Chinese except me. Okay. Nervous. I was afraid now. But one think I should ensured; maintain cool, kept smile. Dup, dap. Nah, just Chinese, nothing to be afraid of *this was not racism blog, okay. I got the 5th number tag to be pinned to my shirt.

It's the time. Going to the board room. 3 interviewer, 5 interviewee. I objective. The scholarship *just like reality TV show. I found myself in cold because the room was like a fridge. After greeted the interviewers, we took our seats. First, one of them explained what should be going on in the room along an hour ahead. First section, introduction. We needed to speak in Malay as instructed by the interviewer. So, I was the 5th interviewee, so it was an advantage for me, as I could observed how the others performance and how can I do much better then them. Okay, one thing I couldn't forget, one of the interviewee's introduction. She introduced herself just nice, until she said Saya kagum dengan mak saya. Then, she kept on telling us about her mom, occupation, activities etc. That's kind of wrong there. Then, my part, I just managed to tell 'em what was crossed on my mind that time. About myself, former school, where do I live, co-curricular activities and they managed to ask me about the course that I've been chosen; Biotechnology.

They asked me, which field in Biotechnology do you prefer or have an interest on it? Okay, actually, I've no idea. I liked Biotech and I knew a little bit about the range of field, but I've never specify my interest on it. Then, spontaneously, I said Human Genome Research or Genetic Engineering. Fuh, I thought it was enough as long I got an answer. My thought vanished as they asked again why this kind of field? Isn't it have many controversial matter that have been debated among the scientist? *The question almost as this, I can't remember the exact question. So, I said, a little bit not more than this, that was my responsibility to change the prospective of the people nowadays about Biotech as the range of field was really wide. You can manipulate many thing as long it contribute to the society. Besides that, there were more thing could be focused on such as diseases matter which related to genetic and many more.

End for introduction part now came to second part; discussion. Yeah, we been asked to rearranged our chairs (which before this being agaist the wall) to form a curve shape. 5 chairs. Then we was given a topic; Alternative Energy. The interviewer asked us to discuss about the definition, then how's those alternative stuff was desperately needed by the world society nowadays (kind of). then, a Chinese girl started. Bla, bla, bla. Then I gave my opinion about the definition, which was a renewable source of energy which could not be finished up even by using large amount of the source in certain time (kind of, I'm not really remember my own words). then I gave some examples, solar, water, waves etc. Okay, this part was not difficult though, because most of the interviewee didn't looked active. Until they needed to be asked, then they gave out their opinions. And one of them also kind of them looked obviously hesitated when answering. Also, a student, Chinese boy also brought in a small notebook, and in this part I could realized what was the purpose of the notebook. Write the ideas before speech on it.

Finally, the discussion not seemed like to be a discussion. Less active members, so i thought the interviewer jut want to make everything gone simple. They started to asked a specific question (still on alternative energy topic) and pointed to any of the interviewee individually, randomly. I managed to answer a question, more or less like this, how about the usage of energy source in Malaysia? Isn't it still ancient because we apparently depend on fuel, coal etc, which still using Earth source. Yes or no? The interviewer pointed, and I said, with a full confidence and the face expression (I couldn't forget this part) I'd answered, Yes! Then, he pointed to the others, yes or no. Something I wasn't satisfied here, as the other have the chance to elaborate their answers, unlike me, just saying, Yes! with over-confident-like-expression pasted on my face. Not fair! By the way, I don't know why, I felt very great by yelling "Yes!" that time.

Now, moving to the last part. We needed to answer a question just like this, If JPA was in desperate and only need one of you to be sent aboard, and the decision had to be made by yourself, who will you choose? You may pick yourself or the other member of room. Okay, frankly, I didn't ready enough for this question. I waited for a while, as I thought better observe others' answers first. Okay, they pointed me first.
For me, I think I was eligible for the scholarship since I managed to achieve the qualification. Plus, the most important thing was, the biotech field in Malaysia was in very beginning stage, so, no doubt, Malaysia need more new scientist to carry on forward this field just like the other developed country. Furthermore, my carrier in the future on only contribute to the specific organization Government especially, but to the entire society too. *I still can't remember my exact words, but more or less like this, seriously.

Okay then, end the interview session of my group. Before going out, they asked for any inquiries, and nobody came out with a question. Then, they thanked us for the co-operation. We stood up, greeted back, nad only me said the salam, we shook hand with the interviewer.

Then, outside the room, we've been asked to pt on a signature on a piece of paper *which Fye didn't do this, then collected my original documents. I forgot to photocopy my parents salary approval form, so I ran back downstairs *using elevator and my father done it. I also brought along my High Arabic Language certificate along as they asked for it too. A bro, I was not really sure why he's there, but for sure he was one of JPA officers, perhaps. He said to me, Speak Arabic, can you? with a grin, just like want to tease me. I just smiled and waited for the elavator as he only situated in front of it. With a long table. *I just don't know what to say. Hehe. The elevator opened, then I yelled to him Ma'asalamah! He reply, Eh, jangan la, tak paham weh. * No need to translate to English. The elevator closed.

My father speed up back to Manjung, and we managed to drop by to my uncle's house in Kampar, and to my grandma's house in Changkat Jong, Teluk Intan.

Anyway, this experience took me 3 days to be typed. *Lazy. This given me some value-added, so i could be prepared as if there any interview someday. *Okay, I think this one not enough yet actually.

Bookfair: Drive Me Crazy; Mad; Insane!

Tired. Fatigued leg. That's all I could express when I spending my hours in PTWC Kuala Lumpur recently. For what? Books, of course. By then, let me tell about the schedule since I stepped my feet on the capital of Malaysia.

Actually I've planned for International Bookfair since I've joined my college trip last year. Since I got limited notes (no money for simple word), I could only buy limited reading materials. So, I've promised to myself, I'll going to make my own trip to PWTC by myself next year. And, alhamdulillah, I've made it. By the way, Wan Amir, the most controversial boy in SMKSM, went along too.

We took our bus in 12.15 a.m, March 27 in Seri Manjung Bus Station. I thought the Transnational Bus will come a little bit as it usually done, but that night, it arrived unusually punctual. Right on time, not too early, not too late. Haha. So, we took the rode, happily, and Wan Amir going along his with lappy, then we could enjoy movie on the bus. Slumdog Millionaire. We had arrived in Puduraya Station around 3.30 a.m. Now what we going to do? Sleep? No. We stayed in KFC, 24 hours nearby reading some magazines instead of having post-midnight meal by buying sandwich cost RM4.50 each, blood sucker sandwich until Subh. We prayed in newly renovated musolla on the 2nd floor of the Puduraya station. So cold in there, like freezer.


Until we could see the sunrise as we began our walk to PWTC. Direct to the World Trade Center. Having several minutes in Rapid Monorail, then having mistake while taking KTM train made us changed our train twice, where Wan Amir was so excited about it. Never have a ride. Then, this is it. PWTC. When we were there on that time, nobody was there. Countable people actually. We decided to left somewhere all our luggage but don't know where. Nothing such lockers provided there. So, we managed to left them in musolla there. Haha, on a shoe rack. We put those stuff beneath it, with a plank on top of it, so nobody could realize there was something there.

We go around and around and around. This place was a terrible. So congested with people. Hard to have a free walk. And for sure. You cannot preventing yourself having skin contact with other people. Alas~ yeah, you know when you got stuck in there, you won't run over those people right? So, just wait 'till the traffic cleared by then you could went through smoothly.


We was there since 8.00 a.m. 'till a little bit after Asr prayer. since then, I jumped into Zuhair, Faran Lokman, And two of baitul qura' friends of them (since they doesn't introduced to me at all, huhu. Not forget, Husaini. And also, Bro Fendy. The most important KISASian I've met was Dr. Asri. So honored to met him. We had shook hand too (blimey, I blinked my eyes when the flashes stroke..).

When, I was searching for ATM there, since the one provided in the building was running out of cash, so I had to find another. Then, I go to The Mall, the lane was like hell. Soooooo long. Oh, My God, I grumbled. I thought, if I join the queue, the money will finishes before I get myself in front of the machine. Huh, very testing my patient. On my way to the Mall, I've jumped into Safan, who willingly let me stay in his house 'till I continue my ride next day back to Perak. He shocked as I called his name. Huhu. Then, I said I was searching for ATM since the one in PWTC unreliable, then we splited our way. I've promised to called him whenever we've done. So do him.

The other way round situation happened. Not exactly like we've planned. I jumped into my cousin that stayed in Segambut. She was walking around alone for the Bookfair, and since Wan Amir and I waited for Safwan as he didn't performed his prayer yet, so we had to wait for him beside the Mall building right against the Pizza Hut window. I noticed Ayu (her name) presence, so I waved to her. She screamed once she saw me and about to jump on me. Seemed so happy. I told he that I'm going to stay in Safwan's so I could not troubling her parents by staying in her's. She kept pushing me, and wanted me badly to stay in her house, beside Safwan's. Gosh. I'm in a middle now. How could i told Safwan about this? Nah, he's cool man. Yes, he was, as he said it wasn't a problem by then. Haha. Only me who easily felt guilty. Idayu also blamed me, why didn't called her? Just like I said, I just won't troubling her parents. That's all. By the way, Safwan told me he going to take me to KISAS, for some purpose. But then, I needed to cancel all the plans. Never mind. It's not wrong having time in your family's member house. Not usual thing we can do always.

We spend a night there, and I managed to make a visit to my aunt's house nearby. She prepared some dishes. We also having chat.

Next day, I woke up late after Subh, contra as Wan Amir was bright-eyed early and managed to buy newspaper from the store nearby. Just felt very tired since I didn't have sleep since 3.30 a.m. Huhu. Then we have our breakfast and planned to go back to the Bookfair to buy some books more, especially Wan Amir was so eager to buy recipe books for his mother. Cake and cookies stuff. As we thought, congested, and worst than before. Wan Amir claimed, he didn't expected Malaysian have the interest in books, moreover most of them was youngsters.

Then, we rode back by KTM, arrived in Segambut and once we got ourselves in the house, we had lunch, packed up and we rode back to the bus station, return back to Perak.

By the way, I think I should list up all the books that I managed to buy from the fair.

First day:

1. Rahsia Kemunculan Dajal - the most expensive book I managed to bought
2. 99 Solat Sunat Lengkap
3. Berbicara Cara Nabi
4. Menyeru Kepada Allah
5. Lirael - huge fantasy novel
6. Aku gadis Mistik - novel for my sister
7. Diari Mat Despatch - for my sister too

Second day:

1. Atlas An-nahu Al-arabih - grammar for arabic
2. Bersolek (Tabarruj) - this one for my mum

Anyway, this time, I felt satisfied even though not much books I could buy. My salary almost finished for this trip. No problem, as I could fulfilled my plan. Alhamdulillah also, my plan was fulfilled by the Great Planner. Praise to be Him.

P/S: Fye also kept calling me for books. And I managed to buy him some as he had banked-in some cash for it. For Amirul who demanding book of Hilal Asyraf, I'm sorry, I couldn't found any.