Isolated. Deserted.

That was the title of my final novel (for now), Terasing by Hilal Asyraf. First of most, I got this book from a book showcase in SMV Seri Manjung, the former school of a friend of mine, so do the workplace of my mum. So, when I busy observing books that had been shown there, my eyes stuck on the book, since I've read an article about it in ILuvIslam forum. According to them, this book was great and full of guidance. I managed to bought it, mum's treat, hehe.

At first I expecting something good from this book, same as others who really hoping the best from the writer in their writing. For me, this book didn't disappointing me at all. Really. Full of everything that people do say 'the food of soul', advices, and some verses from the Holy Quran.

I could see something from this master piece, from the author of course which was the eagerness to show the pattern or shape of a family which every musleem suppose to have, or the right word, to create. Why I said this because the author tried to put a figure in the reader's mind how beautiful a family would like as the members followed the guideline as proposed by Islam. Anyhow, even this was not the main theme of the entire story as mentioned in the title.


Let me tell something related to the title. Terasing, story about two friend who making vow to remind each other in each of their prayer. Also, one of them (Zaman), made his best friend (Saifullah) to guide him back to the right path in case he if he get split or being apart from the way that he suppose to be within. Some obstacle happened, as both of them had been lost contact to each other for 11 years, and Saifullah who always remember the promises wondering about the condition of his former best friend. Until one day, he met back Zaman, and obviously, he changed a lot. Now, it was the time for him to fulfill his promise.

Whoa.. hold it right there. I supposed not to tell you further more. Buy it for the real pleasant of reading. It's worth to own, and reasonably price of RM20.00.

I'm looking forward for other book written by Hilal Asyraf, so recommend me some please yeh. (I heard Sinergi was a great piece). For ordering his books online, you may prefer this link. Anyway, Hilal Asyaf was a great author in such kind of Islamic novel. I admired him. His official website, Langit Ilahi.

Confused, tired, huh.

Since JPA postponed the release of the interviewer's results, whether they have the chance to pursue the study under it, made all tensed out. Huh, seriously, I'm tired of waiting.. Gosh, seriously, seriously, seriously.  Really, He put me in a test. Patient. (-_-)~

I've heard that MARA scholarship result also postponed, and said to be released as the time of JPA's. I found out Izzudin stressed out, as I read on his blog just now.. So do Amar Zaim. Poor them. Poor us. T_T.

As back up, I'm preparing for the intake to University of Malaya by filling the forms, getting copy of these and those documents. I also managed to go to the HSM (Seri Manjung Hospital) just now for medical check-up. After paying the check-up fee, RM20.00, I needed to go to x-ray department to get my inner side of my body being snapped by a giant no-at-all-camera-like stuff. I was shocked just now when I'm staring at the x-ray film, I found some pattern. Weird one. Really.

Then, having urine test, negative, negative, negative. I'm not consuming drug anyway. Then, having eye test, and even though I've been aided by spectacles, my left eye still couldn't see properly. Okay, no more budget for new lens as I have already changed both of it almost last week, if I'm not mistaken. I don't have any money more remain, as I cost RM 80.00. Never mind, next time.

I confused now. The time for UM intake was around the corner. The relusts for JPA almost at the day of the intake. Let's time go on, and see.

Inside or Outside.

The agony is back. Since the most agonizing feeling had happened, the day I fetch my SPM result, now I need to face another one. JPA result.

Before this, I've posted an article about my experiences during JPA interview, here, Program Ijazah Luar Negara (PILN) then, I should wait for the result. Whether I get the chance to pursue my pre-U in INTEC for Biotechnology course or otherwise, I don't know yet. They said, third week of May, perhaps 16th-22nd May. Yah, wait.

I also got offer via UPU, when I qualified to pursue my study in Malaya University for Applied Science with Islamic Study. I've mention about this in my post before this, here, at the last paragraph. I should do the registration on 23rd May.. and those preparation don't complete yet, including medical check-up.

So, since JPA result forced me to had this hectic wait, I don't know where will I go yet. Just all I can do is, keep praying hoping the best for my future. InsyaAllah, He knew the best.

Nowadays of My Life.

Since a long time I've never put or post anything for my abandoned beloved blog. Huh. Seriously, bored to the power of infinity while having time at home, made me so-not-in-mood to type anything. Yeah, nothing to do, got no idea. Usual regime, house works. That's all. Online on the net, I think I should put a limit. The electricity bill was killing. Then I managed myself to have some activities. Some of them, yeah, read on.

Gardening. My lawn seemed like an abandoned and haunted with some wild animals made this area as their habitat. Then, fortunately I got tools for cleaning all the mess. The weeds was tonnes! The most annoying part, there were so many stones, gravel, cement fragment, so do bricks fragment. I also managed to kill some centipedes. Not too big, just long, about 2-3 inches. I attached some pics of plants on the lawn. So, my blog would be just colourful. *Whatever.

 Salary weed. My mom planted this. Died few days ago. So hard to have one of this herbaceous plant in our own lawn..

A birdnest. I found it behind the palm of the bananas trees. So cute. I'm not sure as of there any eggs or baby bird inside.

Some pots that I've arranged on the wall. Seemed wired. From left, I-don't-know-what-type-of-tree, center, curry leaves tree and gonna be ginger plant shoot will come of some weeks ahead.

Snapshot of bunches of Hibiscus orange type flowers. (Want some perfect bunch? Come to my house.)

I'm not sure what was this flower named. But in Malay the called Bunga Jarum Tujuh. This one, it was not completely be bloomed.

My beloved snap, cute isn't it? Rose, pink rose. I have just skinny one of the tree, well, we're on the Equator.

That's all from the lawn. Next time I'll put some snap of the lawn. These just the contents of the lawn. 

Next, novel. Reading of course. I managed to finish a novel of Stephen King, from the collection in Four Past Midnight. The Langoliers, not bad. Credit to Ikmal Nazrin who gifted me this novel. Haha. I just want to borrow at first, then, for so long I didn't return it, he just said, keep it. Langoliers was actually a creature that could eat anything, not just eat, but ceasing the existent of the things that be ate by it. The story begin when a group of passengers took a ride on a plane realized that nobody left on the plane, just because they wide awake. The passengers who fall asleep remained there. Then, they faced some situation, where they met the langoliers, noticing a dark hole in the sky and so on. Ask me if you want have a read on it. 

The cover exactly like this. So thick, 744 pages, consisted 4 novels, The Langoliers, Secret Windows, Secret Garden, The Library Policeman, and The Sun Dog. I've managed to finish The Langoliers, and Secret Windows, Secret Garden. For your information, there were 45 lines each page, making the novel so congested and have many words. And small font too.

I also started to stick on the television. For now, two type of series be my favorite, Glee on Starworld and E.R. on Hallmark Channel.

Glee was a bout a teacher in high school, fight for the reorganization of long-time-abandoned club, which was Glee Club. This club was a singing club, which tended to dig singing talents among the students. Really great series. Credit to Fye for introducing me this TV series.

E.R. I think this is a well-known TV series. About a group of doctor which worked everyday non-stop, changing shift and faced so many type of human medical problems in emergency department. Those doctors an nurses was so amazing, terrific. So quick and precise. Some drama inserted as there were some death and fight. Hayyan should watch this. Real chaotic situation exposed, and if you just follow the series, you'll never want to leave it. Credit to Aiman BAsrun for introducing me this TV series.

Anyway, while I as at home, so many letters came. College, diploma, bla, bla, bla. I have a pile of it, save in my locker, and I've no idea what to do with it. Among the letters, I got matriculation, in Perak Matriculation College, and I've denied the offer as I got offer to Malaya University for Applied Science with Islamic Study. I've accept the offer and if God will it, I'm going to Nilampuri for the course. BUT, I'm waiting for JPA scholarship for Biotechnology course. Really hoping for this as this was my first choice. And InsyaAllah, if I got this one, I;m going to pursue my study in USA. I'll tell you more about it in a short time.

Ok. Enough with this. I'll post some other updates next time. Thanks for reading. =)

First time as Interviewee.

 I really be honored when I knew that I was the one among all the students who applied for JPA or PSD (Public Service Department) scholarship (18,000++ overall), and being selected for attending interview (8,000++ overall). And now, I've done my part by attending the interview last Thursday, April 8th. The program was held in Majlis Perbandaran Ipoh (MPI).

After having 1 hour (I guessed more) trip to Ipoh by car that was lent by my sister in Keramat, my dad arrived in Majlis Bandaraya Ipoh (MBI) building, in front of it. along the trip I felt very uneasy felling of my stomach, and for sure it's nothing to do about butterfly. Wrong diet perhaps. Until we having lunch in the cafeteria on the building, I still could not reach my appetite. So, just having a bite of muffin.

Okay, everything seemed to be fine. My shoe, shirt *peach in color and trousers *my sister said I'm like in retro era because of the cutting of my pant, the documents and the most important thing, the confidence. Anxious, cannot be doubt, but I could not resist the excited feeling, the passion. I managed to go to the 2nd floor, floor for the program being held, then I've been instructed by an office there to left my signature on a board; which 5 A4 sized paper placed there with names. In my approximation, approximately there were 50++ students should be attending the program that day. And I became more anxious, because most of the student of my panel; 4th Panel was Chinese. Then I stepped back understairs.

I met Nabil, yeah! At least one of KISASian be there with me, so I got some strength. having some chat with him really made me up. Then, the clock showed 1.45 p.m. Time to act. Go upstairs, sit for a briefing. Bla, bla, bla, all about documents, making sure we got all what they needed. Then, we wait until a guy called us; grouped us according to panel. I met Qurratul Aini *not sure the exact spelling, also KISASian, Ali sport house, huhu. I managed to say 'goodluck' to her and so do her. Then I walked as directed by the instructor.

I was grouped into 5 students of group. All Chinese except me. Okay. Nervous. I was afraid now. But one think I should ensured; maintain cool, kept smile. Dup, dap. Nah, just Chinese, nothing to be afraid of *this was not racism blog, okay. I got the 5th number tag to be pinned to my shirt.

It's the time. Going to the board room. 3 interviewer, 5 interviewee. I objective. The scholarship *just like reality TV show. I found myself in cold because the room was like a fridge. After greeted the interviewers, we took our seats. First, one of them explained what should be going on in the room along an hour ahead. First section, introduction. We needed to speak in Malay as instructed by the interviewer. So, I was the 5th interviewee, so it was an advantage for me, as I could observed how the others performance and how can I do much better then them. Okay, one thing I couldn't forget, one of the interviewee's introduction. She introduced herself just nice, until she said Saya kagum dengan mak saya. Then, she kept on telling us about her mom, occupation, activities etc. That's kind of wrong there. Then, my part, I just managed to tell 'em what was crossed on my mind that time. About myself, former school, where do I live, co-curricular activities and they managed to ask me about the course that I've been chosen; Biotechnology.

They asked me, which field in Biotechnology do you prefer or have an interest on it? Okay, actually, I've no idea. I liked Biotech and I knew a little bit about the range of field, but I've never specify my interest on it. Then, spontaneously, I said Human Genome Research or Genetic Engineering. Fuh, I thought it was enough as long I got an answer. My thought vanished as they asked again why this kind of field? Isn't it have many controversial matter that have been debated among the scientist? *The question almost as this, I can't remember the exact question. So, I said, a little bit not more than this, that was my responsibility to change the prospective of the people nowadays about Biotech as the range of field was really wide. You can manipulate many thing as long it contribute to the society. Besides that, there were more thing could be focused on such as diseases matter which related to genetic and many more.

End for introduction part now came to second part; discussion. Yeah, we been asked to rearranged our chairs (which before this being agaist the wall) to form a curve shape. 5 chairs. Then we was given a topic; Alternative Energy. The interviewer asked us to discuss about the definition, then how's those alternative stuff was desperately needed by the world society nowadays (kind of). then, a Chinese girl started. Bla, bla, bla. Then I gave my opinion about the definition, which was a renewable source of energy which could not be finished up even by using large amount of the source in certain time (kind of, I'm not really remember my own words). then I gave some examples, solar, water, waves etc. Okay, this part was not difficult though, because most of the interviewee didn't looked active. Until they needed to be asked, then they gave out their opinions. And one of them also kind of them looked obviously hesitated when answering. Also, a student, Chinese boy also brought in a small notebook, and in this part I could realized what was the purpose of the notebook. Write the ideas before speech on it.

Finally, the discussion not seemed like to be a discussion. Less active members, so i thought the interviewer jut want to make everything gone simple. They started to asked a specific question (still on alternative energy topic) and pointed to any of the interviewee individually, randomly. I managed to answer a question, more or less like this, how about the usage of energy source in Malaysia? Isn't it still ancient because we apparently depend on fuel, coal etc, which still using Earth source. Yes or no? The interviewer pointed, and I said, with a full confidence and the face expression (I couldn't forget this part) I'd answered, Yes! Then, he pointed to the others, yes or no. Something I wasn't satisfied here, as the other have the chance to elaborate their answers, unlike me, just saying, Yes! with over-confident-like-expression pasted on my face. Not fair! By the way, I don't know why, I felt very great by yelling "Yes!" that time.

Now, moving to the last part. We needed to answer a question just like this, If JPA was in desperate and only need one of you to be sent aboard, and the decision had to be made by yourself, who will you choose? You may pick yourself or the other member of room. Okay, frankly, I didn't ready enough for this question. I waited for a while, as I thought better observe others' answers first. Okay, they pointed me first.
For me, I think I was eligible for the scholarship since I managed to achieve the qualification. Plus, the most important thing was, the biotech field in Malaysia was in very beginning stage, so, no doubt, Malaysia need more new scientist to carry on forward this field just like the other developed country. Furthermore, my carrier in the future on only contribute to the specific organization Government especially, but to the entire society too. *I still can't remember my exact words, but more or less like this, seriously.

Okay then, end the interview session of my group. Before going out, they asked for any inquiries, and nobody came out with a question. Then, they thanked us for the co-operation. We stood up, greeted back, nad only me said the salam, we shook hand with the interviewer.

Then, outside the room, we've been asked to pt on a signature on a piece of paper *which Fye didn't do this, then collected my original documents. I forgot to photocopy my parents salary approval form, so I ran back downstairs *using elevator and my father done it. I also brought along my High Arabic Language certificate along as they asked for it too. A bro, I was not really sure why he's there, but for sure he was one of JPA officers, perhaps. He said to me, Speak Arabic, can you? with a grin, just like want to tease me. I just smiled and waited for the elavator as he only situated in front of it. With a long table. *I just don't know what to say. Hehe. The elevator opened, then I yelled to him Ma'asalamah! He reply, Eh, jangan la, tak paham weh. * No need to translate to English. The elevator closed.

My father speed up back to Manjung, and we managed to drop by to my uncle's house in Kampar, and to my grandma's house in Changkat Jong, Teluk Intan.

Anyway, this experience took me 3 days to be typed. *Lazy. This given me some value-added, so i could be prepared as if there any interview someday. *Okay, I think this one not enough yet actually.