My last day.

Today was the day. The day that I waited, just like the day I waited for a job. I free now. Free from work, command and boring request. Haha. Actually I've been asked for resign from the store. I cannot make the sincere out of my heart anymore. I couldn't done any work without mumble and grumble. I'm boring, tired. Yeah, as long I've experience to be a worker, doing many harsh work and always being tired and fed up, hold the unwillingness feeling on and on. No, I couldn't take it anymore.

I had told Mrs. Pei Pei for the resign, in the beginning of the week. She said, yes, you can, but make sure all books that should be returned to the publisher all have been packed up. Then I just said okay. I had managed to packed all PEP Publication books (total: 9 boxes, phew!), then it had been taken away by the person in-charge, Mr. Johari, the one who drove the unwashed lorry to load stocks from the main store in Sabak Bernam, took those boxes away to the publisher. Then, she asked me more, how about Cerdik Publication's books? Thanks God, sis Julie had done all the job, checking, either packing. Huhu.Thanks to her. After that, she gave me green light to leave. I asked her for my salary, she said, next Monday, after 3 p.m. Afraid she'll be busied by the customers. Alright then, just okay. I'll be there next Monday. Hoped I got satisfying salary.

Not only that. There was drama behind all of this. Not easy as these. Mr. Chia (now I know the real spelling of my employer's name.. hehe), doesn't know anything about this. Just now, when the store was nearly to be closed, he asked me to continue the work that had been asked by him: next week. I just let him be. Not denying anything, just agreed with him. Poor him. Then I asked Mr. Lee, my second employer for confirmation.vHe don't know anything. Auch! Suddenly I felt guilty. How come Mrs. Pei Pei didn't tell him? Then, I just go.. and left the store, my last day been over.

But now, Mr. Chia had been informed by me through the phone. I really in guilty. I seek for his apology, thrice, and he said it's okay. Just settled down those salary stuff an so on with Mrs. Pei Pei, he said. By then, I felt relieved. Thanks Mr. Chia for everything.

Even though those people, the other workers there may not read this blog, but then, I really want to express my appreciation towards all of you for your co-operation during  the time I was a part of Chiew Books and Sports.
1. Shahrul. He helped me a lot in the store. Lifting boxes. Checking books. Arranging stuff, many things.
2. Sis Yana. She guide me in every single things in the store. How to do this, how to do that. And she also willing to buy me a drink when she's on her break.
3. Morgana. Always cheer me up. She's very effective worker and hardworking. Huhu. Thanks for your support!
4. Sis Umaa. Always asked me to help her doing he medals' stuff. I'm glad to help her! Very nice and kind person.
5. Sis Ding. Cheer and active woman. Always teasing me, making such jokes, and the place for me to ask for goods' bar code.
6. Sis Ana. Having marriage breaks apparently. Actually I always argued with her, because of the attitude, hard to feel respect to other person. Yes, that's her weakness, but then she taught me many things about life. There were such person in anywhere. We just need to prepare to handle that kind of person.
7. Sis Julie. She's really sweet, nice. Since I've been replacing Syafiq (the other worker who had been resigned earlier), my things had been done with her. All about books. She never gave up when guiding me, even though I've frequently making mistakes. Thanks Sis, I'll remember you always.
8. Syafiq, Fatin Syazwani and Mona Fatin. Ex-employees there. Since we was in the same age, peer, we having time like youth in the store, including Shahrul. Exchange stories, cannot be doubt.
9. Mr. & Mrs. Lee (Pei Pei). A spouse who was hardworking. Thanks for everything.
10. Mr. Chia. Thanks for the ride in all around the district. (delivering books and goods to schools. Hehe)

Undeniable, Chiew Books and Sports gave a lot of experiences for me, even only having one and a half month there. Everything happened around me in there was a valuable moment and can't be gotten anywhere else. Thanks everyone, and farewell guys.

Gotta go.

Yet, after 3 months of wait, full of suspense, full of wonder and not forget, full of relaxation, now, this is it. The result at last, will be known just a few days ahead. I can't hold back my nervous feeling, once I make myself to think about the day, 11th March 2010, I could feel my heart pump in higher rate drastically for a few seconds. Seriously, I cannot expect anything this time. But, well, I always hoped the best.

Gosh, the wait really an agony, especially within this few suffering days to the day. I'm so afraid. I've been hoping too much for this. Made me really anxious. All I could do now was, pray, pray and pray. I'm so grateful because there were many of person here willing to pray for my success. Infinity thanks for them. I'm really appreciate it and I would not forget all of you. May Allah grant all your wishes.

Let's accent this prayer for our success.
*credit to ILuvIslam for the illustration.

O Allah, we're facing our day of judgment in this world, after we've been putting all of the efforts along the years in KISAS. We're hoping that You'll give the best result for us, the best in Your way. Please, put away all the arrogant, proud and any other negative attitude from us when you give a victory to us, and make ourselves be grateful, and humble. O Allah, if You've been destined that we doesn't achieve anything that we hoped for, please give us the strength and don't make us feel very regretful and awful. Please Allah, put the victory on our side, make 11A's in our hands, KISAS as No.1 for SPM for the entire country, and especially, put the name of 'Islam' at the top. O Allah, only You knew the best things for us and please make us realize that all of the fate that destined by You was the perfect and the most right ways for us, O Allah, the Merciful and Loving God.

My first salary. Happy or sad? Either?

*These was only my heart talking.

Now, I wanna to type off what I'm feeling right now. After my employer hand over my first salary. Even though I've been published this post to this blog, means that it probably readable for anyone. Actually I prefer not to let everyone to read this but I knew, only a some who was concerned and willing to visit this boring blog. And I decided not to send this post's link to my Facebook as I used to do with the other posts before.

It was a wait. A little bit not more than the wait that I had felt while waiting for having a job since coming back home from KISAS. As the first day of March peeked the week, the wait was began. Waiting for my right. For the change of my strength that had been used as much as I can to the book store for the greater service. Finally my employee only hand over the cash 4 days after that. I got RM 456.15 for the past month's salary. (Basic salary RM 500.00, deducted by RM 41.60, for the Chinese New Year holiday and RM 2.25 for SOCSO, a kind of insurance, by these, I got my salary).

Then, not only that, since I had been hired by my employer by 25th January, I got extra for the extra days. I got RM 96.25 (5 days on the Jan's times RM 19.25 per day). Total salary: RM 456.15 + RM 96.25 = RM 552.40. Huhu, seems not bad huh.

What I've been planned before?
Many. I mean, not too many and not too special. This was my list that I've been jot down on my Papermate Sticky Note.
FIRST LIST
1. New wrist watch
2. Facial Cleanser
3. Water gloss hair wax.
4. Deodorant.
5. Replace my spectacle's lens. (I'm getting blurred)
6. Buy Zehann's novel online.
7. New haircut.
8. New keyboard, mouse for the computer.
9. New earpiece for my MP3. 
Approximately: RM 250.
I also planned to:
SECOND LIST
1. Sent a hundred to my dad.
2. Give a hundred to my mom.
3. Treat my family.
4. Bank in around a hundred or hundred and a half for days in Klang.
Approximately: RM 300

But, this list just remained listed. I didn't think these could be fulfilled. This was my new list:
THIRD LIST
1. New wrist watch.
2. New haircut.
3. Some toiletries.
4. Expenditure for my trip to Klang for the SPM result. For 3 days.
*And I only got RM 200

I did call my mom before she arrived to catch me up from work and I'm saying, "Mom, let's go to KFC tonight." She seems glad in her voice. Then, when I told her I got RM 550+ when riding the car, she said she's tired, next time we can spend time there.

She got a hundred and she needed a hundred more for paying car installment. Total: RM 200. I knew, the real value needed was RM 300. Then I noticed, goods in our house was getting finished. I only got RM 550+, so what I need to do??

I had made a decision. I'll takes RM 200 and the rest I'll hand it to my mom. And I've done it. I just able to fulfilled the THIRD LIST with this RM 200. Plus, for my way to KISAS back. This situation made me a little bit upset.

Then, I kept telling myself. Be grateful, be grateful. Try to be grateful to Allah, better than nothing. And I've made it. I'm really grateful with what I've got now. But I can't hide the other feeling out of my heart. Kind of disappointed. I worked hard, and faced many tough work, I felt like this was not worth it. Yes, I admit that through all the days on the store, I also tried to make myself done the best, and to be sincere. So, the tire was not seems to appear. But, I still could feel the hard work. Anyway,  mine was not bad enough compared to my friends. They only got RM 450+.

The only things I wanna expressed here, that I'm so sad for the not-could-be-fulfilled-list. Huhu. Never mind, maybe next time. InsyaAllah, I'll get a better tomorrow.

O Allah, I'm not trying to grumble what had been fated for me. I'm just expressing what I felt. Please, I beg You, Please strengthen my faith for facing any of your test, forgive my sins, and may all the things happened hided some hikmah(meaning). Put away any sedition of the Devil that could made me lost, and being ungrateful. Amin...

Pictures of Hollis Woods.

I've bought a book, I mean a masterpiece of Patricia Reilly Giff, or in other word, a novel entitled Pictures of Hollis Woods when I was in KISAS in 2009, last year. Urm, actually, when I observing the Scholastic's catalogue, I've no any intention to buy this book, as the front cover was not attractive at all, it just made the buyers have the first expression, the bad one, toward the content, by the cover. So do I, at first I thought this book wasn't interesting at all, maybe the boring one. Despite I had a thought like that, yet I managed to buy a copy. Just to make the overall total of purchase of RM30. Haha. I forgot how much it cost.

Anyway, I'll write some overview about this book here. Pictures of Hollis Woods was a story of a 12-year-old girl named Hollis Woods, who was an orphan that had been left by her parents with only a note, said 'Just call her Hollis Woods'. She owned an outstanding talent; drawing. She really demanding a family. Then, at the age of 12, she's being adopted by a family, Regan family. Being a part of the family made her felt the pleasure of having her own family. But she's always worried about the relationship between the Old Man, his adopted father and his son, Steven, her adopted brother which seems cold. She thought that her present was creating the mess. Then she made an escape back to the orphanage house, then she's being adopted by an old women named Josie. She's really liked the Regan family, making her wondering, were they accept her back to their family if she come to them back?

My comment for this novel, this novel wasn't so great. No any outstanding plot or surprising event or unexpected one. Just monotone, without climax (or there was one, just me can't detect it's presence). I'm not sure this kind of novel suitable for what kind of person, 'cause this novel was just dull. Just read the novel if you want to know more (but I bet nobody desperate to have even a glimpse at the novel after I'm saying this).

Anybody want to have a read on it? Contact me. InsyaAllah I'll lend it to you.

P/S: The cover looked boring, isn't it?

My Blog.

Why I'm involved in blogging?
Influence. My friends got into blogging, and so do I. I thought this another way of getting yourself on the net was really great. Besides Friendster, Myspace, Facebook, and many other interesting social web pages, I thought I couldn't lose anything for trying blogging. And now, I got my own blog, blog of a beginner. This one.

Why I'm using English in my blog?
I want to conquer the language that I've learnt since I was in the kindergarten. It doesn't meant that I loved and admired or really liked this international language, not at all. I just wanna be strong in it, make it my second language and the most important, I could have the skills to communicate with the foreigners. Hah, skills. Communicating skills. Knowing the language was not enough without the skills. Even thought my English was not good enough until then, yes, I realized it, I still gonna make it as my blog's language, so that I could practice, at least in writing. I could speak a bit, and I'm still in learning phase. But then, I still using Malay on the shoutbox beside. Huhu~

What was the feedback from the others to this blog?
Before that, the majorities of my blog's viewers was my friends in KISAS, and not forgotten, some of my friends from Seri Manjung. A very bit of them really liked my blog, and understand me, why I did these and those in here and they also supported me. They made me felt I'm very lucky to have them. Some words from them really put a strength on me. Negative feedback, I couldn't see any until now. Out of some of my friends that I mentioned before just not criticize nor expressing any unsatisfactory towards my blog. They just kept in silence.

How about the visitors?
Only a few, countable. I thought I need to put more effort in publicizing my blog in other web pages, and I've done some in Facebook. But then, still, less visitors. I think I know why. Because of the lingua franca here. I wrote in English, so they felt my post just wasting their time. They need to read one by one, and paragraph by paragraph, to get what I really meant here. I'm not blaming them, I knew, this was just unfavorable. They more rather prefer blogs that using simple language, Malay, 'sempoi'  and not complicated. Essay-like blog like mine? Duh~ I do have made a visit to other's blog. They more prefer fancy, colourful, using many emoticon, and highlighting there and here with many type of colours, and most of them made their post in align center. I'm not them, sorry. (I also found out a trend where some blogger put dropping object in their blog, I think, it just messing up your blog..)

These some of FAQ for my blog. Some of the reader/visitors may like or dislike my blog page, but I don't care. This is my blog and I've right to publicizing anything that I want, in my own way. If you want to criticize, go on, comment on the post or just post some quotes on the shoutbox. Simple. Thanks for any courageous  comment. I really appreciate that. For the haters, kept your hatred feeling by yourself, I don't care. Haha.